I want to be like Jiminy Cricket but more of a pain in the ass. I want to write about how things don’t have to suck so hard. The thing is that every day can feel so shitty. You know? Every day you can wake up and feel tired, low energy. I might have five thousand thoughts in a day, and sometimes three thousand of them are negative thoughts. I just really would love to take a day and lay in bed, or maybe a couple of days. I could just have some emo me time and sit in my weird thoughts. But why would you just let your day go on like that? I generally enjoy my classes and my professors. I have a few really good friends that I love and care about, and who love and care about me. I work ten hours a week but I really enjoy what I do. So what’s the big deal? Why are more than half of my thoughts so negative?
I think it’s just so easy to slip into that perspective. I have OCD, depression and anxiety, but I think for most people it’s just easy to slip into that mindset. Why do I have to get up and go to this class? I mean, we all know we have a few decades until the whole world changes and Jeff Bezos takes over everything. That’s true, but there are so many other good things we could be choosing to focus on. It takes a lot of energy, but try it with me.
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Write down what happened in your day. If you don’t want to write it, just try to think about it. Write out all of the things that are stressing you out. Look at the list, and sit with it. Let it make you feel really anxious. Then break down your list into things that need to be sorted out that day, or within a week. Figure out what you can do that isn’t too anxiety-inducing, and do that first. Then do the next thing, and then the thing after that. It’s hard to do this on your own, but it’s better if you start small. One foot in front of the other.
You can also take another few minutes to rewrite what happened in your day, but this time put a little bit of a positive twist on it. My alarm went off at 8:30 this morning, and I just wanted to lie in bed. Or… at 8:30 my alarm went off and I was tired but I wasn’t late to class! When Commons only has shit food, think of it as an excuse to eat Lucky Charms. Which are bomb. When you get stressed about post-college life, think about how far you’ve already made it. I mean your 13-year-old self would be shook that you’re in college. How cool are you?
I don’t know if this helps you. I really don’t. I don’t know you or how shitty your life feels sometimes. All I know for sure is that this is really hard work, and we could easily let ourselves be passive. I just want to try to discourage you from doing that. You got this. And if you don’t, eat a lot of snacks and dance until you do. We’re all on the same boat.
Sydney is a sophomore.